November 3, 2007

  • I woke this morning to Teffy walking up and down the side of my bed, purring away and wanted me to pet her. She's been doing that a lot this past week. She's finally getting friendly in Zazu's absence.

    As I stroked her, I thought about Zazu's limp little body from last night and missed him. My next thought was making a mental list of what I had to do today, and oddly, the first thing that came to mind was fitting in time to visit Zazu in the cat hospital before going to Newmarket. Then I remembered that wasn't going to happen today, or ever again. I miss him so much.

    I neglected to mention another of my mother's barbs from last night. When I told her I got approved for disability, she kept saying "You? They gave you disability?" She truly does not have any understanding of the damage she has caused me or the suffering I experience.

    I wanted to go to church tomorrow while we are in town, but now I think I'll avoid it because I just can't stand to see the evil bitch right now.